Well what a day!

          Talked to my niece today she was having a sad day! Needles to say it was because of a careless mistake that someone was just not thinking when they did it! You don't send a baby shower invite to someone that has just lost there baby. I remember after Samantha died I could not even go through the baby department a Walmart it would make me cry. But at the same time my best friend had her baby three days after I had Samantha. Talk about hard but I think it helped some to I was so hurt for my loss but trying to be happy for her at the same time. Years later me and her talked about it and how hard it was for her to at that time because she was scared to that it would happen to her.
           I wish Heather the best in all this and that some day she will feel better! But for now I hope people think be for they act and remember that it is ok to cry when ever you want to. I love you Samantha & William and miss you more then you will ever know! <3

My Baby's

               My first angel that went to heaven was my Samantha Ann Bleikamp. She went to be with God on September 14, 2001. All I could think was why me? Why did God chose me to go through this?  It took me a long time to get through this and with alot of help I did.
                My second angel was born William Robert Budd. He went to be with God on May 22, 2004. Then again I was still trying to figer out why me? Gods chose me for a reson what was it?
                Well never ask why when it comes to God you might not want the anser you get! I now know that God did  this so that I could help others that go through this. I now have two nieces that have go through a lose of a baby. I would never wanted them to go through this nore do I want any one else to. I love my family very much and it hurts me to see this happen to them. It is only by the Grace of God that I made it through my loss.             

                                With Love Mom & Aunt Chrissy